I often wonder how do you start a blog post. Today I am going to write whatever comes into my head no matter how odd or strange this might be. I also won’t change the grammar only the spelling. I have to give you a fighting chance to understand the madness that sprouts from my wrapped mind.
This week has been hard. This week I suddenly came to terms with what is going on. Now I know it’s been happening for weeks and maybe I should have spotted this sooner, but I have been working darn hard to keep certain sections of an industry going as I am deemed an essential worker. This has meant long very busy day trying to make sure people are in the right place at the right time. This has meant I haven’t had chance to follow the very wise Ferris Bueller:
Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.
Clearly this was a different time and is meant as a happier more optimistic view on life but it still applies. I have worked and work so when I have finished for the day, I tend to watch Netflix, Amazon or YouTube. While I have not avoided the news, it’s not something I have sought out.
This week however, things have changed. Plans and processes have been put in place and are working. This has caused a massive drop off in the work I am required to do. This in turn has meant days no longer whizz by in a flash but crawl and stumble to their conclusion.
I spend my days staring at an empty spreadsheet, moving the mouse occasionally and replying to the very rare lesser spotted email. It’s gone from feat to famine and it’s hard to deal with. Now, this is not a woe is me story, as I know I am privileged to still have a job and one that is still paying me 100% of my wages. I am not on the front line risking my life. I am at home in my PJ’s.
With the lack of work comes time for the brain to do what my brain does. Disappear into some strange world of thoughts. Over thinking and wondering if and when this will end. When will I see Cub again? When can I return to the office and, I can’t believe I am going to say this, do some other kind of work.
Food not just peas
Then we have food. That thing we all need to make it through life. The last few weeks, I have eaten stuff. Some of it may contain a lot of biscuits but the rest is dull. I don’t know why, but I am not looking forward to meal times. The food I would usually make seems bland and boring and not something I look forward to eating.
It’s not even like I used to go out to restaurant to eat either. The times I did, I really enjoyed even the worst meal. Knowing someone else had made it and was doing the washing up. Yet these were few and far between.
Thinking about it now, may be because my life now is one endless repeatable day. Nothing changes and nothing to really look forward too, that food has also become grey. I am half expecting to peal a carrot and find it very grey on the inside. Now this has reminded me of Spitting Image and John Major’s peas! Not a euphemism.
I have taken today off, not for any other reason that to just stay away from boredom. At least today I can do what I please, like writing this mess of a post. Thinking about it, If I take next Friday off too, this would mean 3 weeks where I would only be working a 4-day week. What an excellent idea. Thank you for that. You’re very cleaver for a passive reader.
Anyway, that’s enough of this.